My turn now! Guess who is this? heh
4:25 AM
Hello folks. These few days had been AWESOME for me! Through QT and circumstances, God spoke to me! :D
I've been escaping from my QT during holidays. Only saturday i come before Him to hear what He wanna say to me. I felt that my heart was very empty and that fire was out.
I set what i want to become, am i trying my best to do it? NO. :/
Yeah, so finally my QT is back! (sounds weird)
I've been experiencing God and stuffs. Totally 0.0
I believe everyone faces persecution, right? Maybe from friends saying,"eh we go out on saturday!" Then suddenly turn to you and say,"aiya.Forgot you need to go to CHURCH."
I bet it's super frustrating and you feel like kicking them.
What i faced was unpleasant. Fancy a good friend pointing middle finger to you. I tried to crap somemore and turn away. But she pointed it in front of my face.
At that point of time i wanna make her trip and fall down. Just kidding.
But God said.
"Blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you and falsely say all kinds od evil against you because of Me." Matt 5:11
Well, totally cool.
Rely of God completely! Ask and you shall receive, seek and you shall find and to him who knocks, the door will be opened! :D
loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee,
PEILIN.
7:11 AM
there's Baptism on upcoming 24Aug'08!
want to get Baptised? Fast & Pray!
& get the form quick! let Irvin/me know if u want the form!
:D:D:D
I WANT GET BAPTISE ALSO!
Let's pray hard together! :D
I even dream of my parents coming to see me get baptised!
but will it come trueeeeee......? hmmm.
don't think about Negative stuffs only!
HUH? but my parents like that, surely wont let me get baptised de lah..
HUH? but i just accepted Christ leh.. maybe it's not the time yet..
HUH? but i got ___ problems leh..
blablablabla..
HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD~
sing with me
How great is our God,
and all will see How great,
How great is our God! lalalala~
2 Corinthians 5:7
We live by faith, not by sight.
& sidetrack abit, JIAYOU LIBIN for your testS!
God is with you! we're by your side too! :D
LOL! people, keep him in prayers okay!
& FAST & PRAY tgt tmr until pm is over.a
and fast every thurs together for a revolution
& breakthroughs upon breakthroughs in our life!:D
8:47 PM
WARNING:this is really gonna be a longlonglonglong one. pardon me:D
uhm. Backsliding wasn’t much of a big deal to me ever since I left church and started living my own way of life. I was also relieved and felt ‘light’ after leaving all my responsibilities behind me as I stepped out of church.
-I couldn’t stand the constant pressure (and looks from others-not naming them) I faced, with all the newly believers going neck-to-neck with me through the comparison of our spiritual maturity.
It was hard as people have stereotyped that older Christians should always be the model because their spiritual maturity was much higher. Why? Imagine yourself to be an old Christian and new-believer surpassed you. It was kind of shameful for me, having to juggle both competition in church, leadership, and also my own personal problems.
First few months of my new-found life was awesome and hectic, known to the fact that making new friends and having a new lifestyle wouldn’t be much of a problem to me since I am so hyper-active and crazy most of the time.
Every minute the clock ticked, I enjoyed my new life, and soon it became days, and days became months. Then it became a point of time where I felt tired of my life, as it was kinda repetitive. (not exactly repetitive ,but generally, it was kinda repetitive.)
I felt like I wasn’t doing anything significant that I could really be proud of. (like something really meaningful) I am not talking about achievements, but I am focusing about how much impact I did either to people/ myself, that my life would me worthy to be measured upon.
Then, it was that point of time I began to drift back to things related to my past.
What I have done to people and to Him that I couldn’t even believe I did those horrible things and yet he forgave me unconditionally.
How much He loved and appreciated me though I was nothing compared to other even ‘holier’ Christians.
When I was down, and I see every Christian friends known to me busy doing their own thing, never really bother even asking how the ‘broken and lost’ was doing. I wondered “was I never once thought of by them?”
It was depressing. Remembering them as my previous cellgroup members was like adding oil to the fire.
I began to think and encouraged myself that maybe it’s the time, my time, that I should do something about this gap. This hole, that I will do whatever it takes to fill it up.
It did not end with just a thought/ a feeling, soon on that week, a friend of mine send me a song by starfield ‘cry in my heart’. That song touched me deeply. Made me yearned for him even when I disobeyed him. That song taught me to lean not against my own strength, but to Him alone, I can find answers. Making a mistake was part and parcel of life, but choosing is the way of life, no matter how much mistakes I made in the past, God somehow understood without me even explaining. There’s just so much comfort I couldn’t comprehend just by dwelling in His presence.
After that, I went home. Began to do my 1st QT ever since I backslided..
1samuel 1-28
After reading it, it somehow hit me that I was longing for Him to come and rescue me from my anguish, and He answered. God also taught me that answering isn’t the end of a relationship between Him and me, but by respecting each other’s presence, with obedience, and unbroken promises, that He will surely bless me. And I should start keeping my word.
God is truly amazing. Look at yourself, Your areas of life where you felt that even the world/friends don’t seem to understand how you felt. Just remember that there’s always God for you to turn to, and a friend to lend a helping hand-Me call at 92960478. 24/7 hrs available.even if you just wanna cry out about anything, i'll be willing to lend a ear.
John 16:24
“Until now, you have not asked for anything in my name, ask and you will receive, and your joy shall be complete.”
Ask. And believe that you have received it, and you surely will. I believe that it takes courage to ask and faith to believe. Take that step, and see how much God can do in your life!
cheers: smexy libin
11:59 PM
WHAT ABOUT THISSSSS LIL GIRL?? :D
MAKE A GUESSSS! :P
3:27 PM
HEYHEY!
check out who's this! :D
make a guesssssss?
take a CLOSE LOOK at the face!
wahahahaha!
for people who knows, SHHHUUUDDUPPP ah! :P
12:18 AM
As a secondary 4 student, facing a major exam, my mother starts to forbid me from going out too often. But, during the first 2 weeks, was intensive revision, hence, I didn't manage to go out at all. During the 3rd week of holidays, all my friends began to ask me out. Gatherings, outings, meetings and everything flock to me during the 3rd week. Hence, it seems like I've been going out too often. Mummy hence began to get angry. She puts all the blame on church and began saying things like , "wah, go church teach you how to go out everyday ah? " and " wah, go church must come home so late one ah? ". I know I am wrong that I've been going out the whole of week 3. But, I didn't mean to do so. Because once school reopens, I may hardly ever get to go out to smell the air of town. But she doesn't understands and put all the blame on church.
On Sunday, I asked mummy if I could turn up for zealot's games day on Monday. Then, she began scolding me and stuffs, saying that my church ain't a good church. And began putting all the blame on church. I was getting very angry as I really couldn't take it when other people criticize my church. Especially mummy, because I thought she would understand. But, I did not want to sin against God by quarrelling with my mother, I began calming down while she's still scolding me. I heard God telling me to cool down. And I began to tell myself, " yeeting, shut up first. Let mummy scold you awhile will die ah? Scold finish maybe will better lorh ! ". Hence, I began to pray to God to give me the tolerance against mummy's scoldings and unreasonable blames.
After that, when she stopped scolding, I thought God had already answered my prayer. However, she walked to me, and said, " this whole week, you are not allowed to go anywhere except your dance lesson. Not even church ... ". I began tearing and scream within my heart. I didn't want to miss church, neither do I want to miss any of church events. My heart was confused and was overwhelmed with anger. But, all of a sudden, I saw my bible and was reminded that all this is satan's doing. Victory is God's, then why am I allowing satan to destroy my r/s with God? Hence, I began to calm down and think through what I should or should I say, what I can do.
I calmed down and began praying to God. I asked Him to give me a moment of silent to think through things. And also the courage and strength to fight the anger that's overwhelming me. I began to cool down and anger seem to disappear. Then I continued praying to God, asking him to soften my mother's heart, so that she'll at least allow me to go to church. I went to bed after that, praying hard that God will answer my prayer.
The next morning, I run errands that I usually whine about for my mother, hoping to let her see the change in me after attending church. During breakfast, I ate with my mother and while eating, I prayed silently in my heart, for God to soften my mother's heart as I want to make use of the calm atmosphere to ask my mummy to allow me to go to church on Saturday. I mustered all my courage and asked, "mummy, can I go to church this Saturday? I wont go out the whole week, in exchange for just 1 day. Can? PLEASE ! ". She hesitated, my heartbeat increased. All along, I'm still praying to God. And, when I saw her lips open, I prayed even harder. At last, I heard 2 words, "okay lorh ". And I was soooooo happy that I couldn't close my lips throughout my breakfast. Then I began to thank God for answering my prayers. And through this, I understood, God answers desperate prayers ! Amen, Praise the Lord !
YEETING!
2:56 PM
Hello Dear Brothers and Sisters In Christ! :D
This is my very first testimony , please pardon me if I've said anything wrong.
Well, I'm here to share something actually:)
So yeah, a few days back, spammers came back and spam my blog.
I know I should ignore them but they really hit my limit!
I'm okay with them saying nasty things about me like calling me names like fatty and such.
But but, they have really gone too far, they even scold my mummy!
At this point of time, I'm really angry and I feel the urge to find out who the person
and bash him/her up! I mean like he/she don't give me respect I'm fine.
What for drag my mummy into the picture?
That very night after I argued with the spammers on my tagboard.
I did my usual quiet time with God and I pray that He will tell me what to do.
After that, I went to bed and dreamt of bashing up the spammer, and I got caught
and was being suspended from school and there I saw Pastor Preston face.
Then I woke up and I recall about the Sermon on 7 June 2008 which was led by Pastor Preston.
Ps Preston says,
"I don't have to live my life to what people says about me. I'm not anyone but I'm a child of God."
When I thought of this phrase, it's like totally gotton into me and it's really true!
After that, I just felt that the dream I had is the answer that God is giving me.
And it's really true that we don't have to care what people says about us.
God wants us to live our life to the FULLEST and He has come to give us the BEST!
God is so true, and He answers our prayers. It's just a matter of time.
But if you feel discourage just because you have pray for something and it does not happen.
Bare this in mind. DON'T ever feel discourage, cause God will always find a perfect timing
to answer our prayers. So let's just pray hard! The time will come!:D
Last of all, I would like to say GOD IS GREAT!
Hallelujah!
Eugenia(:
2:52 PM
I've a testimony to share!
Okay.. I invited my friend from SP long before this YI Amazing Race! At first, she wasn't sure whether she can make it or not, don't know whether got anything on that day. so i told her, "I've BOOKED YOU." haha! and I even put it on my nick. then she was like "Okok! I WILL GO!" haha, YAYYS! that's good of course! :D she finds the Amazing Race very COOOOL, & she was excited! :)
then 3 days before the actual YI Amazing Race right, I was told that Im the marshal for the Race -.- I was very very worried! I told them Im bringing friend but they say have to sacrifice, no choice. My friend is coming for the very first time & she dont know anyone, I dont dare to break the news that I will be marshal on that day to her. I scare she straight away tell me she don't want come le... ): plus when I invited her, she even asked me if im with her throughout the game to ensure she will not feel weird been alone..?
At that moment, I was very panicked! i dont know what to do. I saw Weikun online! I told him everything and one thing that he said reminded me that it's always up to God's timing! and I went to pray.. I hope this time round, my friend will come and if it's not God's timing for her to come yet then let me stay positive and stuffs.. because for such a long time, I've been praying for my friend & anticipating for her to come for this event already. Yup, at first I was still reluctant to accept the fact IF my friend is not coming! but still I continue to pray, hopefully she will just come lah!
Finally, the night before the Event itself, I smsed her about me being Marshal & was not able to join her during the game.. then she replied me " sianx ah.. liddat dead lah, cant change le ah? anw rmb to bring the sandals for me.. " at first I was like "Huh, she sian sian.." but after reading the whole msg *especially the last sentence.. I was relieved! that means she's still coming!! :D:D
another thing is she's my classmate that never fails to come late(or absent) unless the lesson is not in the morning. eh about 80% of the time, she's late?! soooo her attendance = bad lah.. haha.. i scare she will missed this Event too.. so gave her morning call. so I really appreciate she came too! somemore it's something early in the morning. my cg meeting her at 730. but she also got late lah. but at least she make it in time! :D haha!
at the end of the day, saw her & asked her about the Race.. she enjoyed and stuffs.. when I read her blog, can see she really enjoyed :D Yes, really thank God for answering prayers! thank God that my friend still came after all! thank God for the VERY VERY GOOD weather! :D:D everything can went through smoothly! :D YAYYYYYYS!
XUELEEEEEEEE!
4:00 PM
Before Conference {lunch}
after conference! :P
FORFEIT {story-telling}
2:56 PM