As a secondary 4 student, facing a major exam, my mother starts to forbid me from going out too often. But, during the first 2 weeks, was intensive revision, hence, I didn't manage to go out at all. During the 3rd week of holidays, all my friends began to ask me out. Gatherings, outings, meetings and everything flock to me during the 3rd week. Hence, it seems like I've been going out too often. Mummy hence began to get angry. She puts all the blame on church and began saying things like , "wah, go church teach you how to go out everyday ah? " and " wah, go church must come home so late one ah? ". I know I am wrong that I've been going out the whole of week 3. But, I didn't mean to do so. Because once school reopens, I may hardly ever get to go out to smell the air of town. But she doesn't understands and put all the blame on church.
On Sunday, I asked mummy if I could turn up for zealot's games day on Monday. Then, she began scolding me and stuffs, saying that my church ain't a good church. And began putting all the blame on church. I was getting very angry as I really couldn't take it when other people criticize my church. Especially mummy, because I thought she would understand. But, I did not want to sin against God by quarrelling with my mother, I began calming down while she's still scolding me. I heard God telling me to cool down. And I began to tell myself, " yeeting, shut up first. Let mummy scold you awhile will die ah? Scold finish maybe will better lorh ! ". Hence, I began to pray to God to give me the tolerance against mummy's scoldings and unreasonable blames.
After that, when she stopped scolding, I thought God had already answered my prayer. However, she walked to me, and said, " this whole week, you are not allowed to go anywhere except your dance lesson. Not even church ... ". I began tearing and scream within my heart. I didn't want to miss church, neither do I want to miss any of church events. My heart was confused and was overwhelmed with anger. But, all of a sudden, I saw my bible and was reminded that all this is satan's doing. Victory is God's, then why am I allowing satan to destroy my r/s with God? Hence, I began to calm down and think through what I should or should I say, what I can do.
I calmed down and began praying to God. I asked Him to give me a moment of silent to think through things. And also the courage and strength to fight the anger that's overwhelming me. I began to cool down and anger seem to disappear. Then I continued praying to God, asking him to soften my mother's heart, so that she'll at least allow me to go to church. I went to bed after that, praying hard that God will answer my prayer.
The next morning, I run errands that I usually whine about for my mother, hoping to let her see the change in me after attending church. During breakfast, I ate with my mother and while eating, I prayed silently in my heart, for God to soften my mother's heart as I want to make use of the calm atmosphere to ask my mummy to allow me to go to church on Saturday. I mustered all my courage and asked, "mummy, can I go to church this Saturday? I wont go out the whole week, in exchange for just 1 day. Can? PLEASE ! ". She hesitated, my heartbeat increased. All along, I'm still praying to God. And, when I saw her lips open, I prayed even harder. At last, I heard 2 words, "okay lorh ". And I was soooooo happy that I couldn't close my lips throughout my breakfast. Then I began to thank God for answering my prayers. And through this, I understood, God answers desperate prayers ! Amen, Praise the Lord !
YEETING!
The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall never be in want.
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