Baptism form
GLORY TO GOD THAT MY BAPTISM FORM IS SIGNED! :D
At the end of July, I know that Baptism is drawing nearer.. I need to get the Form to get my parents sign asap! I was actually very determined to get it signed this time! although i know i can easily wait till im 21 years old to get baptise without my parents' consent! but it's different thing! WHY?
1. My parents dont decide for me, they might still not even agree by that age too.. but i get baptise because at the age, i can decide on my own.
I feel that there's no support from them at all..
2. I cant glorify God's name if im doing it MY WAY.
if i can get baptised right now,
it is God who answered my prayers, woo GLORY TO GOD!
yes! so i desperately wanted to get baptised before i reached 21yrs old :D
okay.. this time round, i started asking my parents on 5aug/6aug night.. they STRAIGHT AWAY reject me.. i was upset of course.. & turn to my room blablabla.. dont understand why i cant get baptised!! but yet i cant do anything but pray... the next morning as i have no school.. was studying at home, preparing for upcoming exams.. then halfway, i wanted to write letters to my parents.. i know i cant talk to them properly face to face about such sensitive issues one. i get emotionally affected easily if they reject again ): sooooo, wrote down why i wanted to get baptise so much now rather than to wait for 21 yrs old. i tell them honestly that i want their support too blablabla.. Then that same night, went for ldrs' meeting.. Halfway in the meeting, i recalled that i dint put the letter somewhere they can see!! I placed it in my drawer ._. So, i smsed my mum, telling her to read the letters that is meant for them(daddy&mummy) yah.. she never reply me.. i was very anxious. I dont know what are they thinking right then.. will they change their mind & let me get baptised already?? On the way home, I told siewling about it too. She was telling me sometimes parents act blur about such things.. Then when i went home, i saw the letters at the same place. like not touch at all leh. As my parents is already asleep, i went to checked if my mum received the sms that i've sent her during the meeting. She did received & read. But she just did not do anything about it? did not sign.. did not reply my letter.. I thought what siewling said was right. they act blur? like nothing happened? haha. i decided to place it somewhere RIGHT infront their bedroom door.. the next morning CONFIRM can see one. (cant act blur also.. :D) then the next morning, no school for me too.. i was still lazing around on bed. suddenly! i remembered the letters & stuffs. i jumped up and looked to my table.. see if they got replied anything back for me or even best, sign the paper already..!? i stretched my hand to my table to get the baptism form + letters(cos i put them together) then again, NOTHING! no signature ))))): sigh, at that moment i was getting impatient already ): i started to complain.. why i try this & that still cant get it sign.. I've tried to fast.. tried to pray hard.. tried to write letters.. tried to explain nicely to them why.. But they just simply return me the papers on my table.. i ALMOST wanted to CRUSH the paper, tear it up.. and gave up! ): But another side of me, still want to persist on. I tell myself not to act on impulse.
later sekali God answered my prayers the next day or when, then i dont have the papers to let them sign!! haha. this thought just came to me lah..
Then i went out to the living room.. My mum actually left a note for me! But again, it's the same reason that she told me when they rejected me in the first place. "that Baptism no need to rush!! you can get baptised when you are older... dont get baptised so early.. dont decide so early.." /: i understand why they said that.. After all, they have no bad intention.. they just feel that there isnt a NEED to get baptised NOW!
i thought there is really no hope already.. reject reject reject /:
But AMAZINGLY, that evening when my daddy came back from work. He asked, "You want to get baptise huh..? where's the form?" I was shocked & i dont know how to react.. I just nodded. then continue sitting at the computer table. He asked again. Im sure I dint heard anything wrong! I went to the room to get the form and pen. passed to my dad to sign. HE SIGNED! :D but with a warning still. /: that's why I shared to some people that my dad is still quite unhappy, but at least he signed! so have to continue praying that he will happily let me go baptised! plus they will come for my baptism!! im overjoyed, the form is signed! i went to the room telling Yingmei who is at that time at my house. i cant stand the joy inside me that i cried again. but this time round, cry out of JOY! I finally got it signed! hahaha.
God really helped me throughout the whole thing, even as i was being rejected. haha. like how He has calmed me when i almost crush/tear the paper.. imagine that afternoon, i really destroyed the paper, i really have no paper to let my dad signed that same evening leh!! thank God! :D
& God really showed me how important it is to just follow His time, not my time. & follow His way, not my way! taking every opportunity to glorify His name, rather than wait for a time when things can be done by my own ability. in my ability, God's power will not be seen! it is when i cant do it, God's power is shown up! :D I got this signature is something God has helped me! not what I've done to make my dad sign.. & God gave me the strength to persevere on. I've rejected many times to not get baptise yet. I get discouraged, really want to gave it all up. ask for 3 years already leh. this year itself get rejected a number of times too..(i believe your should understanding how discouraging it can be) plus when I know Im going to be rejected for this reasons before I even open my mouth & ask, yet still God gave me the courage to go ask my parents again & AGAIN & AGAIN! until this time round His time is HERE! this coming Sunday, IM GOING TO BE BAPTISED! :D Yes, Glory to God alone! :D:D so i encouraged all of your, for whatever reasons you know you might get rejected for, God is there to help, dont give up! His time is perfect! His ways is right! :D
God's Child,
XUELELELELELELELELELE!
The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall never be in want.
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